This is my favorite title submission by far, although now that he mentions it, I really like “less crazy than the day before” too, which was the title of my last post, like Allan suggested. However, (and I am apparently going to lose Allan as a reader altogether now?) this week I was inspired by some U2 lyrics that have become my new title. I don’t know if it’s perfect, but it definitely sums up a lot of stuff that I struggle, live, think about, deal with, rejoice in, etc.
I was listening to U2’s How to Dismantle and Atomic Bomb the other day and the start of one song goes:
“The more you see the less you know,
the less you find out as you go,
I knew much more then,
than I do now.”
This very much expresses how I relate to religion, faith and life in general right now. I was something of a fundamentalist for a time and really thought I had life figured out. I believed I understood Christianity and its place and meaning in my life. I had certain views about God, right and wrong, and the world and those views shaped the way I lived my life almost to a tee. The problem was, the world began to open up to me through places and people and emotions and just life, and things became so much more complicated.
I realized that the more things I learned, the more I realized I didn’t know, and that back when I knew a little, I thought I knew it all. It’s ironic, but I think many people would agree. There are still ragged strings of faith left, but only the really strong, ingrained deep-seeded ones of the human heart survive. The rest I ponder and wonder about and sometimes try to talk to the God I once felt I was “close to” about.
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This is a rather profound post considering I have just finished a 10-hour shift at work and am sitting at the computer in the office, 20 minutes from home and a good, long sleep. I thought I would take a minute to read blogs and then Mary and Allan spurred me to write. I have another almost-finished post on my computer at home that will have to wait another few days for posting I guess.
October 20, 2005 at 2:47 pm |
everytime i hear/read the words to “city of blinding lights,” i think about how ridiculously awesome that song is live. everybody jumping up and down to “OH. YOU. LOOK. SO. BEAUTIFUL TONIGHT.”
thanks for getting it in my head
and ll, thanks so much for all your honesty. i love being a part of your life.
October 20, 2005 at 8:14 pm |
Hey Laura! Thanks for the comment on our blog–I think you’re the first one! Although I don’t really think I would call it a blog, as it’s really just more of a photo album so parents, etc. can see what we’re up to more than 2 times a year… no really introspective prose or anything. Mostly I just lurk around your blogs at work to try to keep up with what people are doing and maintaining some kind of Madison/UW connection. Everything is going well and I highly recommend graduate school to anyone–you get paid for doing research and reading and writing and thinking and talking to people about ideas. Not a bad life (although to be honest it doesn’t pay very well, at least right now
We’d love to get together sometime when we’re back in WI next–probably around Christmas. Hope all is well!